Autobiographical

What is this story about?

Drawing on decades of lived experience, Van Huijstee writes with unusual candour about the events, relationships, and ideas that have shaped him — from his early years in the Netherlands to the long process of building CS-social and what that project revealed about human nature, digital life, and the difference between connection and contact.

This is a book about loneliness — not as a failure, but as a signal. It is about love found and lost, about the creative impulse, about consciousness and what it means to pay close attention to one's own inner life in a culture that rewards distraction.

Honest, occasionally uncomfortable, and written without sentimentality, this autobiographical work is less a memoir than an extended meditation on what it takes to live deliberately in an age that makes deliberateness very difficult.